Love Abounds: Embracing Yourself in Love



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I wonder, how often do we actually embrace ourselves, all of our self? 
How much happier would we be if we decided to live our lives fully, not running from any part of who we are, but accepting and embracing all of us? What beauty could occur when we merge the pain that has caused us to rage, with the pain that has caused us to withdraw and be timid? What would we discover when we accept what we have been through, who we have been in the past, who we are now and the potential of who we have yet to become?
I can relate to running from parts of me. Running from memories that caused me pain, feeling stuck and paralyzed while attempting to hide from myself. Afraid of myself. Afraid of what would happen if I stopped being afraid. Fear of fear is a doozy, and kept me trapped in a viscous cycle. 
I have learned in order to be my best self, I must accept and embrace all of myself. The part of me that feels afraid at times, overwhelmed at times, overjoyed, delighted and stressed.


There aren’t any parts of me that aren’t worthy of love, compassion and support. Angry me deserves just as much time and attention as happy me. Stressed me deserves as much validation and compassion as peaceful me. Even in my darkest moments, I deserve respect and kindness. Oftentimes we are told we must consistently behave a certain way to receive kindness and love, when that’s simply not the case. God loves us always and in all ways.

Jeremiah 31:3
The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.


God loves us when we are sad, mad, confused, hurting and heartbroken. There is never a time when our Father does not love, care for and empathize with us. We are His Beloved Children, and He wants us to love and treat ourselves the way that He loves and treats us. God wants us to run to Him, confide in Him, and take refuge in His love, at all times, not just when we have been on our best behavior and life is going good. When we learn to allow God to embrace all of us, and allow ourselves to be loved by Him, we can embrace and love ourselves. There is no need to be afraid when there is love, and there is no better way to live, than in love.
                                                           
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Shed The Layers: A Journey of Healing and Self Love

I am happy to announce that my first book is available for purchase through Amazon! The ebook version is free through Kindle Unlimited. This was an incredible labor of love. I learned and grew so much from the process of writing and publishing this book of poetry and prose. I encourage you to leave me feedback through my email or directly through Amazon, if you choose to read it, as I would love to hear what you think. The link is provided below!
This book is a journey of poetry, prose, affirmations and mantras into the depths of healing, self discovery and self love. A poetic tale of realization and release of the things we allow to accumulate over our souls, dulling our views of ourselves, and subsequently, each other. This is a book of reunion, with ourselves and our Creator. A book that offers words of medicine to facilitate a deep inner healing. I invite you to journey with me, to release what holds you bound and to discover who you truly are, and the potential that you hold, underneath all of the layers.”

Through the Storm, Rainbows are Found: My Journey through Postpartum Depression

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I have had 4 children in 5 years, including a set of twins. I also have had three different births, a c-section, a VBAC with an epidural and a VBAC without any pain medication. Each of my pregnancies and deliveries taught me so much.  I had always envisioned pregnancy and the postpartum period to be filled with bliss and peace. A time where I would be connecting with myself and my unborn on a deeper soul level, and while this connection did occur, I also suffered from severe morning sickness and a whole host of other health issues, which included postpartum depression after each pregnancy.

Because my pregnancies were fairly close to each other, it felt like I would get breaks from the depression, only to be hit with it again. My postpartum depression would come in waves and has been one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. It robbed me of my ability to connect with myself, with my family, to think clearly and make decisions. I lost my ability to reason, to remember and to be patient. Postpartum depression filled me with guilt, shame, and self loathing; as well as decimating my self esteem to a point where I was unable to feel like I was doing anything right or even able to look at myself in the mirror. I also suffered from Postpartum anxiety, intrusive thoughts and the desire to self harm.

My youngest child is almost two years old, and I am just now walking out of the dark forest that is postpartum depression, and into the full light of wholeness and healing. It has been a very long road, but one that I was able to walk and gain strength from. Taking medication for postpartum depression wasn’t an option for me, so I followed my inner guidance and intuition to take the steps needed so that I could heal.

Prayer, positive affirmations, mediation, rest, connecting with God and allowing His love to surround, fulfill and uplift me, yoga, tea, writing, and being patient and gentle with myself when my methods didn’t seem to be working fast enough, or at all, helped me to recover and have a deeper love for myself through this process. Depression is an illness. It is debilitating and can be quite destructive, but it is possible to make it through and become whole. It is possible to feel like yourself again, and to just feel again.

I am living proof, that the greater the storm the more beautiful the rainbow. I can now face any storm with the confidence that trouble doesn’t last always, and that through every storm, rainbows are found.

Place Of Worship


“Go find your place of worship
Look into your pain and find your praise
Every low place in your life
Prepared you for your high place
Every tear you cried is water for
The garden of your victory
And even though you’re in the valley,
Victory comes through your adversity
Go find your place of worship”
Place of Worship – Marvin Sapp

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Where is this place of worship? Where can we go when life gets to be too much? Where do we turn when answers are unable to be found? Is it possible to gain, and maintain, peace and harmony when unsettling circumstances and situations seem to be a constant threat?

Worship as defined by Merriam-Webster, is “…reverence offered a divine being or supernatural power;” When engaging within an active relationship with our Heavenly Father, worship can become a place. A safe haven, a refuge and a shelter.  Through the act of worship, the act of providing our God with our undivided, loyal, and loving adoration, we create a secret place of rest. This place of rest is available to us always. Worship is one of the keys to unlocking this sacred place, as worship allows us to tap into the divine love of our Creator that surrounds us constantly. Though we are always surrounded by this divine love, we sometimes have a hard time feeling this precious life giving energy and have to be reawakened to its presence. Worship helps us to do this.

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God desires a relationship with His People; His Creations, that were created with, and by intention, and not by chance or cosmic mistake. He desires our conversation, our time, our adoration, appreciation and praise, and He deserves all of these desires. He is never too busy for us. He will never put us on hold and ignore our cries, questions, or pleas. Even if this has seemed to be the case in the past, it is simply not true, as it is out of God’s character to be anything but the utmost good. He desires nothing but the best for each and every one of us.

Our happiness is of utmost importance to Him, and He finds us all deserving of His love, mercy and grace. God does not give in the way that man can give. He does not give with stipulations and invisible strings attached. He gives effortlessly, generously, and from the never ending well of love that He innately is. What God gives to you is yours. What God desires for you is yours.

Just like cultivating any other meaningful relationship within your life, time and effort on your part, is needed. Take the time out of every day to meet God on His terms, and experience the sacred space of worship that can transform your entire being. Take the time out every day to genuinely speak with and listen to God. Allow yourself to be taken into His presence, and bask there.

Why I Write

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From the moment I learned how to write, I have felt the need to write. To unleash and release my thoughts, emotions, ideas, reflections and opinions onto a page in the form of the written word. In some ways, writing is my preferred means of communication. When I write everything feels right. 

When I write, I am able to see different aspects and versions of myself. All of the multifaceted pieces of me and gain the perspective needed to appreciate all of these pieces. A perspective I might not have gained elsewhere or from any other source. 

Writing is my connection to God. To the divine world that surrounds us, but is oftentimes forgotten in the so called ‘reality’ that we find ourselves in. Writing is my solace and my sacred place, where I find healing. Writing is one of my favorite forms of self care. 

I have written myself through many hard and joyous times, and I have written myself well. Writing is as essential to me as the air that I breathe, and my soul feels peace and satisfaction in being able to share the pieces of me with you. Maybe, just maybe, my writing inspires you to write more, for fun, and just for the sake of writing, and all of the beauty and magic that writing brings.